to the one i loved the most

Long ago I saw you coming out of a hotel

With some girl,

And it didn’t take long for me

To figure out what you were up to.

I thought, that’s it, I will not feel anything for you anymore.

You were a rose that finally showed his thorns.

Your purity that I imagined has been tarnished.

I decided, that I will cut off everything I felt for you from now on.

But, sadly, no.

I look at you from afar

And I see that unassuming, adorable smile of yours and

Your radiant eyes behind your nerdy eyeglasses,

And my heart still leaps in my chest.

I was back to zero again,

Trapped by your toxicity and dangerousness.

No one can immediately suspect

That you’re what they call that notorious “f” boy.

You looked so guilt-free, like a child just having fun

All while you used up and broke hearts

Left and right.

You’ve trapped so many

You’ve cast a spell on so many

And I hate to admit it

But I’m one of them.

I knew you for a long time

And I know how much of a despicable person

And unfaithful lover you are

But I really do adore you

And maybe I’ll always be like this—

Trapped under your spell.